Monday, December 19, 2011

December 19th

December 19th is never an easy day for me. 8 years ago today we lost someone who was very close to us. It's not something we're ever going to get over. It's not something we're ever going to understand.

But as time goes on I'm learning that loss is part of life. Things happen that you don't think you'll be able to survive. There will be days you don't want to get out of bed. Days you think your marriage is over. Days you would do anything to turn back time and go back to the before.

But eventually there are incredible days in the after. Days that ring with your husband's laughter. Days that smell of new babies and beginnings. Days that remind you that however scary and sad life gets, there are still so many reasons to smile.

Life is never perfect. Not in the before. Not in the after. But we have to live in the now. And sometimes the now is kind of amazing.

15 comments:

Natalie Aguirre said...

This is so true. I can so relate because I had a loss like that in early December four years ago. I so agree with everything you say about how to handle it.

salarsenッ said...

Yes, life does have its ups and downs. In each, there is a different lesson to learn, something that will help mold us, change us into who we are supposed to become. And yet, some of those events will remain a mystery to us. We must trust and move forward. Not always an easy feat.

B.E. Sanderson said...

:hugs: For me, it's May 6th.

Nicole Zoltack said...

*hugs*

Erik said...

Very well said, per usual.

Tough day all around, yet so much to be thankful for 8 years later.

Miss you Mikey... will try to smile and recycle some of your favorite jokes today, especially the more sophisticated ones, like...

"Hey, wanna hear something funny?"

Amy Lukavics said...

<3 x a gazillion.

Tara said...

Beautifully written Lisa. Hugs to all of you today! Love you.

Jill Hathaway said...

Love this post.

Erica said...

Thinking of you all today, and wishing you ever more light in the darkness.

Krispy said...

So well said. I've got a day like this later this week. So thanks for this.

Lisa and Laura said...

You always know exactly how to say exactly what I'm thinking. This is beautiful.

~Laura

Jemi Fraser said...

My Dec 19 is June 13. It helps to remember the joys and the sunshine moments and best of all those wonderful memories! Take care, share some happy stories and hug those babies.

Christi said...

Very well said.

My December 19th is May 25th. And May 1. Actually, would prefer to go from April 30 to June 1, and skip May altogether. So I totally understand what you're going through, hugs to you all.

Christa said...

We lost someone at this time of year too. It is so hard even still. It is a great season but painful too because you miss them so much. Thinking of you all. Wishing you memories of all the best things.

Little Ms J said...

Hugs and kisses, love and mush.